Ellen Pall

Ellen Pall is the author of a dozen novels, including Among the Ginzburgs, Corpse de Ballet, and, under the pseudonym Fiona Hill, a suite of Regency Romances; her next novel, Must Read Well, is forthcoming in 2022. She has also been a frequent contributor to the arts pages of The New York Times.

To Recover Mother

For a long time, I believed that if I was good enough, my mother might come back. I knew she was dead, but I thought that if I stayed loyal to her, remembered her, pleaded with her, she might come back.

August 25, 2020

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